Awakening to Truths

I know that I always wanted to live in Utopian society.  Ever since I was a little girl I somehow had the ability to think that everything that happened to me was wonderful.  I don't know if that was some kind of a defense mechanism my brain used to protect me from reality.  I always thought my family was wonderful, my hometown was like living in Mayberry, my friends (I always had many of them, or so I thought) were the best. I did well in school and was always involved in many school activities.  I was accepted into a top-rate college and excelled academically.  I found my dream job immediately after graduation and had the time of my life.  Young, single and working in New York City - my beautiful island playground .  Clubs, parties, Broadway, road trips, romance and, of course, shopping!  The dream continued and I believed life always falls into place and the world is a nice place to be in.